With questionable signifigance. I am not as active as i have been. I havent drawn as often as i would like. Though, to somehow prove to myself that i live, i'd like to talk about myself. Selfish, vain, attention grabby, in my own awkward way. More so i want to talk of me more informational than opinionated.
This is a journal. But is public. People use it to rant and rave and make fools of themselve. They use it to look for consolation when the real world with its real friends arent there for you. A hugbox for those needing asspats, she said humorously. I try and make myself into somethig in my mind that i am not. "protector of man, a just person, son of a noble man" thats what my full name means awkwardly enough. I do think, in some aspect you become your name, but you can control wether it is positie or negative. I do wish, wholeheartedly, to encourage people. Though, secretly i hate everything. In a way it is the most natural thing to hate, as humanity is. If you learn to hate it, it proves your humanity or ignorance. Humanity is animalistic, and to be human is to resist animal instict and intentions. Like violence, lust, the other 7 deadly sins. Though if you hate it so much you ahould try to change it, no? This consept may be what drives said "trolls". The good ones, not the cyber-bullies. Trolls use facts and reasoning, sometimes harshly if they think the person of intrest is not listening. Cyberbullies point out all your physical and mental issues and call names and have no wish for change.
Anyway, thats a big difference, but mistaken by those who are closed minded.
Whoa, wait, i thought i was gonna talk anout me.
Ok, i'll tell you whats been going on. Currently, I'm on a bus. I'm as free as a bird, strapped to a thin chain. I've been taking GED tests all week. One more tonight. I have a new phone. I'm blessed though repeatedly persecuted. By my mind mostly. I could not stand school. The people were wretched beasts(ref). These test have all been easy though. Just science left. My minds rather logically creative so science come easy. Plus i always do good on test.
But I've been walking all day. So I'm tired.
I don't quite feel like myself.
I got third place in a jewlry design contest. The reward didn't last long. (slightly bitter about who won, i won't deny).
I lost train of though and phone is gona die so i'll end with the fact that im enjoying making costume too much